Recounting past...

May 21st, 2014
Wednesday
8:40 A.M.

I am going through the toughest phase of my life. Days come and go but your memories only come they never leave. Yesterday 10 weeks got over. I don't know if you remember me or not. More than two months is enough time to let go things. Specially for you as there will be celebration time at your home. Had everything been fine, it would've been a celebration time for me too. Aarav, Iti, Priyam, Ananya di, Sweta, Vidit everyone is enjoying. I smile too with them but they don't know this smile is fake. It's just a way to show them that I am fine.  The truth is that I am not fine. I still miss you like anything. Even today whenever there is a buzz on my cellphone I expect it to be you.

Last night Aarav texted me late night to talk. I really thought it would be you. I was highly disappointed to see it was he. Still I replied to him. We had a normal chat and than he asked me about you, indirectly of course. I didn't know what to say. I switched off cell without saying bye.

He didn't take your name but the way he asked about you brought back all the memories associated with you. I was thinking how I used to wake you up in late nights. How much I loved it. Those beautiful moments. Those silly cute romantic chats. Those awesome stories. Stories no one else can tell. Stories I loved like anything. Every single story was the best in itself. Even the best selling authors of this whole world can't write such lovely stories to make me smile.

I crave for those stories. Come back please. When you're with me I always had a peaceful sleep cuz I knew you're with me. Now these sleepless and restless nights make me miss you more. I get scared of even a slightest voice. So many times I stay lost in thoughts so deeply that if anyone speaker I almost shiver. Love is seriously the most dangerous weapon used for killing.