Clumsy emotions...

May 4Th, 2014
Sunday
5:57 A.M.

"True love has it's own miraculous power..."

Opened my eyes a few minutes back. I wish I could wake you up like I always used to and sleep back after our lovey dovey moments of romance. I want to revive every single moment we spent together. But just because it's not possible now I was rereading our gtalk chat. Have a look on our last chat of gtalk on December 8th,2013. Yes our anniversary day conversation. On the same date my blog was published on newspaper. How happy we were on that day. Reading horoscopes of each other, celebrating our anniversary along with the happiness cuz my blog was published in newspaper. Certainly one of the best day we celebrated together. I want you to go through your own texts. Just check them once how jealous and angry you were on Aarav just because he called me Baby and I called him sweetheart. How furious you were telling me that you want to punch him and you don't like the way he interferes in our life knowing that we are in a relationship.

I have just read the texts we exchanged on that day. I am in utter shock. After going through the whole conversation we had I cannot believe you don't love me or there were no emotions. I seriously want you to read it once and answer me what was all that if not love. Why so much care? Why so much hatred and jealousy for Aarav? Why you wanted me to not talk about him? Why the hell you always filled with rage whenever Aarav commented on my FB/ blog or I go out with him? I want all the answers. Why you always showed that no one can love me more than you. Why you always proved yourself the best staying by my side when I wanted you to go away? Give me answers.

My life isn't a game to play with. Do you even have any clue how I am living here without you? I am not living, I am dieing here. You did it on purpose or what? I tried putting myself in your shoes and questioned myself what had I done if I were at your place. I got only one answer I had never continued it for this long. Remember when we confronted each other after all the chaos you reminded me of what happened between me and my cousin some years back. Did you forget that I closed that chapter as soon as I discovered that it could lead to some serious problem. I never lied to you. My heart was crystal clear. You made unremovable scratches all over it. What you got in return?  Are you happy now?