Old vs new...

May 22nd, 2014
Thursday
7:00 P.M.

When I see other people being with each other madly in love I feel so uncomfortable and lonely. Not because now I don't have someone by my side, its because once I had you who loved me like no one can love to anyone. The worst part of being in relationship is that once it is broken you feel more lonely than you ever felt when you're single.  Its kinda same for me. I was fine when you didn't enter into my life. At least I knew I have to make it on my own alone. But then you came into my life. You made me believe that I am not alone. You are always with me. You promised that no matter what happens you'll never leave my hand. I was so proud to have you. I still am.

Today I talked to someone on chaty and he told me that you always used to ask about me whenever I wasn't there. I have saved his screenshots. It felt good to know but it hurts equally. Wasn't that love? You're always so much caring and possessive for me. People in love do this. Wherever I go people ask about you. They want to know where are you. They want to know how our relationship is going on. It hurts extremely. I don't get words what to say. I have no answer. I don't know where are you. I don't know how are you. I don't know how to say our relationship no longer exists.

6:44 P.M.

You remember sometime back I had lost my gold chain & ohm pendant. Today I went to jewellery showroom to buy new pendant and chain. I haven't purchased chain for myself as I have another one too. Instead I bought a ring and a new Ohm pendant. I wanted to send you pic but I don't know whether you'll see them or not. The day when I had lost my pendant I had cried whole day as it was a memorable gift to me. Now I have got a new one but its not as special as the previous one was.