Fears...

May 3rd,2014
Saturday
6:28 A.M.

The very first thing Missing You. Just woke up and the first name echoing in my mind is yours. Looking at your online status on gtalk is making me more restless. I desperately want to say good morning my buddhu sweetheart but I am resisting myself as I don't want to be in any chaos once again.

Actually I'm not afraid of initiating a conversation. I'm scared about the consequences if you replied back. I will believe you again for anything you say. You are more like a weakness to me which I can't overcome. I just can't get over you.

My interview date will be announced soon. I am so much worried this time. I am not prepared for it at all. I am not studying. I don't want to screw it up but I am very nervous. I wish it gets postpone for some days until I regain my composure.

You know what I read all the mails of 2nd May,2013, yesterday and they were really filled with so much love and emotions. You must be having all those, read them once again. I can bet you'll cry the same way I was crying.

I am unable to figure out how everything turned so ugly. How smooth and frictionless our life was. How thorns are laid on our smooth lane of life? My world came smashing down in a fraction of moment. I feel worse every time I think how easily you said "Sorry" and let it all over. The words are still echoing in my head. Just one thought is running in my mind and heart, how could you do this to me? All I can think of is you. All I know is you. All that matters to me is you. I want to relive those beautiful moments one more time. The moments I have preserved in my heart like a precious treasure. My moments, our moments. All gone now to never come back. Why didn't I realize you'll bring me heartache one day? I should've known.