May 5th, 2014
Monday
7:10 A.M.
A shudder passes through my body as I see you online. I recall the period of my life when we used to stay online only for each other. I don't know if our relationship fell apart because of the truth I came to know or not. All I know is that I am shattered and I am in no frame of mind to comprehend anything.
I think I am the only one crying out here. My tears are not only because of my helplessness in the whole matter. My tears are also for an end of a relationship that meant the world to me. My tears are for my mom's grief. My tears are also for my own lost identity.
Throughout the journey of our relationship you supported me unflinchingly. Perhaps if Iti hadn't planned it secretly and proved it publicly, things might have been different for me. Perhaps I had believed everything you said. Sometimes I wonder if all this hadn't exposed in front of whole world, I might have been with you today. Even though it's too late now to think what could have been, my thoughts find their way to you, an ugly reminder of what it would have been. Your thoughts still stir a storm inside me, though outwardly I look calm and composed.
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