It's always you...

May 28th, 2014
Wednesday
20:48 P.M.

Everytime I try to move on you are there. Everytime I try to hold you, you are gone.

I actually don't know from where to start. Every breath I take has your memories. Even if I try to convince myself that it has to happen someday so I don't need to think about all this, my heart won't accept it.

I don't know if I miss you or I'm missing myself. Nothing makes sense to me. How things started to how things ended, everything is so confusing. I tried to recollect when I started falling for you. I couldn't remember anything. I guess we had some strange bonding since start. I still remember the first time I noticed you was when Priya introduced you ad her bf. We had talked earlier too but that was the first time when I noticed you. After that I don't remember how we got separated from the whole group. I can't recall anything about the time I started loving you. Maybe I don't remember about the day, date or time but one thing I am sure about is that it was always you who made me happy.

Nothing as changed today also. Even today only you are the one who has the power to make me smile. Thank you so much that you wished me. I don't know if you hadn't wished me how would I had spent my day. Maybe in tears. You know I haven't opened some of the gifts yet. Getting gifts and opening them as soon as possible was a craze for me but this time they are still wrapped and kept in my cupboard. I am not feeling to open them.

I really wanted to show you the pictures of party and gifts. I wanted to tell you everything about my day. I miss our old conversations when I used to tell you anything and everything on my mind. Missing you isn't something I do willingly. It happens itself.