Me-You=Emptiness

May 29th, 2014
Thursday
5:00 A.M.

Although we aren't together anymore, I still miss you the most.

Even when I have thousands of reasons to leave you, I always get one reason to hold on to you.  That one reason is LOVE. My love for you will never change. Today you're not here with me in my life but I cannot forget the time when you were with me, when I owned you.

So many times I want to go back to the time when we met first. No, not to hold you forever but to wipe out them from my life. It would've saved me from the pain I am facing today. For others its all rubbish to think love someone who actually doesn't exist now but I know you existed for me. The love between us was never fake. I know if I miss the time we spent together you must be missing them too. If I feel incomplete without you, you must be feeling alone too. If I miss your good morning wish, you'll be feeling restless too. I know you very well. If its hard for me to survive here, it cannot be easy for you either.

20:47 P.M.

Don't know why I am not feeling good. Maybe I am missing you. Having headache and eyes are paining too. Not feeling like talking to anyone. Day was okay. I have started working on a new story. I started this story long back but I didn't finish it. Now thinking to complete it. Very much confused about the names of characters. I wish I could ask you for suggestions. Right now I have chosen Shlok and Shruti but I ain't satisfied with any of them. It's not appealing to me. Had you been there, you would've helped me for sure. Unfortunately you aren't here. I know I cannot force you to be with me but I can wish at least.

You know what even today if I see a falling star I wish for you, even today if I bow my head to pray, I pray for you. Whenever I get hiccups I think it would be you missing me. I understand its all foolish but these things are beyond my control.