3 weeks...

1-April-2014
Tuesday
6:24 A.M.

'Loving you was easy, losing you was hard. Loving you is still easy but knowing that you're no longer mine is hardest of all.'

Taking the first step towards a new  relationship always seems so difficult but once the first step is taken there is no point in looking back. I was never an easy going girl who would fall for a random guy or trust someone so easily but it happened so smoothly that I never realized. Strangers to acquaintance, acquaintance to friend, friend to more than a friend and slowly you became my life. When I took one step after another I don't know. It was all so magical as if I was in dream. Those unending smiles, blushes, happiness, sweet nothings... damn how can I forget anything? Its impossible for me.

Two long years... I wish I could turn back time and change everything. I wish we had never met. I wish I had never let you come close to my heart. Ironically nothing can be changed now.

Complete 3 weeks have gone by today. I am feeling the same as I was feeling on that day. The words uncle said to me still echo in my ears. The things Avantika di told me are still in my mind. The way you said sorry, I can never forget. In just few minutes my world turned upside down and I could do nothing. A part of me died at that very moment.

Not only I lost someone I loved so much but also my trust was broken, my dreams were shattered, my all hopes died. Somewhere deep inside my soul I knew sooner or later we will part our ways but it'll happen so drastically I never thought. A reality I still can't believe. I don't know why but I feel there was something I am still unaware of. The part of story I was told maybe true but I'm sure there is something I don't know till now.

I can never believe that it just happened and you couldn't stop. In two years you've known me more than I know myself but even I know you too.