Standstill..

28-March-2014
Friday
6:37 A.M.

"Relationship lies in the hands of one who cares less."

Once I read this statement somewhere and I really believed on it. I was always so careless and you were so concerned. But nothing remains same. Today you seem to forget everything and I'm missing everything.

Yesterday I was shuffling through the novels, by chance I got one of our favorite "She broke up...." While I was turning the pages I saw the poem "Only if I'd known... " You remember this poem? This was the same poem you had put on your DP and send a pic of this to me when I was angry with you. I couldn't read beyond 3-4 lines. It reminded me of the days when I used to say "You're super unromantic. Learn something from Durjoy." I never said it because you were unromantic, I used to say it because you felt jealous of him and I loved it.

I went to join classes last evening and it was terrible. Everything was same..same class, same teaching staff, same friends but I was feeling so restless. I couldn't concentrate in class. My eyes had tears. I left class in midway and came back to home. Nobody was there to say "Kanyu jana jaruri hai?" Or "Meri baby ka dhyan rakhna." When I came back you were not there to say "Missed you sho much my baby." I don't know how will I study. Books, classes, timing to go and come back everything makes me miss you like anything. How am I supposed to study when only you're on my mind?

Time is passing but things are not getting any better. I can't take my mind off from you. I try every way to distract myself but no way seems to work. 2 years...2 long years we spent together. We were like two bodies and one soul. You could read my mind. You could feel what I was feeling. You were always around me like a shadow. We were inseparable. We faced so many obstacles too and still stayed together because you wanted to with me, because you knew I may pretend I can live without you but the ultimate truth is I can't.