No way to escape...

27-March-2014
Thursday
6:45 A.M.

Missing you hurts so much..Don't know if I want to stay awake or fall asleep... If I want to escape my thoughts or escape my dreams.

Another day, another morning and another day to miss you. You're my first thought of morning ray. I open my eyes and think above you. You're my last dream of slumber. I close my eyes and you enter into my dreams. Neither I can stay awake nor I can sleep back. I really don't know what I want to. Missing you is the worst thing. Moreover I didn't know I could miss someone like this.

How easy is it to say "Move on" and how tough is to actually follow it? I have seen people moving apart. I have seen how much Harsh loved Mauli and Mauli too loved Harsh but they couldn't get together. Life played games with them too but they've moved on in their lives. Yes they do miss each other but with no regrets they have accepted it. I have no idea how? It's getting impossible for me to move on.

Yesterday Ankit came to meet me. In last 3 years he had never seen me like this. The chirpy girl who used to shout all day on others not even speaking to anyone. Pretty much like a shock for him. We always used to do masti, hit and tease each other but this time I wasn't even feeling like talking to him. Anyways he came for reason. He wanted me to join classes once again. It's been 18 days I've not gone there. I really don't want to go anywhere but somehow he and others convinced me to join classes from today. I still have doubt if I'll really go.

My life has ceased. It's not moving ahead. The day which I used to think is too less for us is now too long to pass. I remember how hours used to pass like seconds when we were together and now seconds seem like hours.