Sleepless Nights...

H21St-March-2014
Friday
6:37 A.M.

The days are passing and life is moving ahead. Everyday a new morning with the new hopes for everyone but I'm sitting here thinking of you. Not even a single moment passes when you're not in my mind. I can't think beyond you. It makes me feel vulnerable. How one person can change life like this? Isn't it weird?

Time is moving like the waves of flowing water taking everything flow away which come in its course. I don't know why I'm not moving on. I'm still into tears thinking of you. Tears making way to escape from the hues.

Yesterday Shipra came to see me if I had become any better and for her yes I have as I didn't cry before her. She thinks I was a fool that I trusted  you blindly. Shashank also thinks the same. They all never wanted me to be with you but I never paid any heed to what they said. Now I realize I did blunder.

10 days have gone of this incident. For everyone now it's an old story. But only I know for me it's as fresh as a morning dew drop. I haven't forget even a single thing. The morning wishes to good night stories. I remember them all. My life has ceased.

Yesterday(20th March), it was Lovie-Dovie's first birthday. I was walking down the memory lanes. We had fight one day before for some reason and you were trying to make up my mood when I got the news that Sweta is bringing a surprise for me. This surprise was Lovie-Dovie, the cutest bunnies I ever saw and suddenly I was so happy. Shipra, Anushriya, Vernika, Sweta, Navya and Me, we all celebrated all day long and even you were so happy to see their pics. It was such a lovely surprise. Now one year has passed and see today everything has changed. There is no happiness. When Mom said that she wants to give Lovie-Dovie to someone I simply refused because I always considered them lucky for both of us.

You know a weird thing? In these days since I am gloomy and crying even they've changed a lot. They don't run allover the home. They don't do mischiefs.  I can see all this but I can't help it. Maybe they are just pets but I know they can feel that things aren't going on well at home.

I have lost my sleep. Whenever I try to sleep I get to sleep only for few minutes and again my sleep breaks. Sometimes I feel so restless that it becomes difficult for me to breath. I try to divert my mind in different aspects of life but it never happens. No matter what I start thinking about my all thoughts end up on you. I miss you like hell.

I don't understand why such things are happening with me. I used to write for you and now I'm writing about you. My inspiration has lost. I miss everything about you...about us.