Committed to pain...

June 5th, 2014
Thursday
19:16 P.M.

Life is like a two faced coin. When you toss the coin you never know which face will be up. In the same way you never know when the days of heavenly realms will turn into nightmare.

During the days when we were together I never paid attention to anything else. Nothing mattered for me. Whatever was happening around me was of least concern. I never cared. All that mattered to me was You(still its you). All I needed was you(today also). But now when you're not around I feel so alone. I feel a part of me missing. I feel as if someone has taken out my soul. I feel empty.

I am wavering in my own world. I created this world with you, for you. Now when you're not the part of this world it fails to Keep me happy. There is a cacophony of voices in my head which I cannot decipher. Being stuck in these undecipherable voices is certainly not ingenious. I am screwed. It amazes me how much things have been changed in these three months.

Giving voice to unsaid was once my forte and today I'm unable to decipher the voices of my own mind.