Unending questions...

June 22nd, 2014
Sunday
6:30 A.M.

Weekend morning. I remember how special and important it was for me always. I used to wait for Sunday so that I can spend sometime with the one I loved(love). Now its no more significant like before. Not even as important too. Got no reasons to wait for Sunday. I miss those moments. I miss how I loved to smile with you. You made me feel happy. You made me smile. You made me feel complete.

Now when things have changed other way round I feel so incomplete without you. There is always a void within me. I feel hollow inside. It's so painful.

Why things have changed?  Why you are gone away? Why can't I feel like before?  Why can't I be happy like I used to be? Why I have to bear this unending pain? What was my mistake? Where was I wrong? 

Questions, questions and only questions. All unanswered. Why don't anyone come and answer me? I am tangled in the matrix of innumerable questions. People say it's better to let go off things and forget past. Why don't someone tells me how to erase the memories?  Is there any way to format life?

These mornings are no longer happier ones. I don't feel like getting up from bed and face everyone else. Above all I am having this headache. Today even though its light headache than previous days still I want to close my eyes again. I haven't slept whole night.

Last night Sweta and I were talking to each other till 2:00 A.M. at terrace.  We didn't discuss anything serious but I think it was for the first time in last four months when we sat together and chatted. I won't say I talked. It was only she who told me about so many things. I had nothing to tell. I feel mom or maybe any of my friend has said her to find out whats going on in my mind. The way she was trying to make me speak my heart out was definitely not her way to handle me. Whatever it was I want to say thanx to God for blessing me with a sister like her.