12 Weeks...

June 3rd, 2014
Tuesday
5:10 A.M.

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?

Okay so today 12 weeks are going to over. 12 weeks without you. Longest time spent without you. Big deal. Isn't it? Perhaps not for you, but for me it is. How silly of me! Opened my eyes and writing all this. Can't help it. As I woke up the first thing that came to my mind was the day. Every week this day comes and reminds of the day when we moved apart. The day I lost you.

So let me recall what all has changed in past 12 weeks since you left me alone. Actually let me reframe the question. What is same as before single you've left? I don't need to stress my mind to answer it. Simply the answer is NOTHING. Neither me nor anything else.

It takes lot of time to build a pyramid of cards but it takes just a slight blow of air to break it. My life has become the same stack of cards. It took two years to make our relationship so strong and unbreakable and it took just a moment to break all the promises and faith. All dreams shattered in just one moment. Smiles faded as if they never existed.

8:00 P.M.

Day is coming to an end. If I say I missed you a lot then there is nothing new. Missing you is like beating of heart, I cannot stop it even if I wish to. I was actually checking my mails sometime back. Whole of my Inbox, sent mails, starred mails, important mails, draft messages are filled with your messages. I didn't dare to open and read any of them.

It's painful to open and read them. I am already suffering from so much pain. I cannot take it anymore.